Shit Happens

I.
To people who know, i was applying for a supervisory position at work for some time now. I did well in the exam. Apparently i also did well in the interview. Unfortunately everyone else did better. Other applicants had weeks to prepare. I had an hour and a half. So i have an excuse to fail LOL. And fail i did. BUT i had a talk with my Operations Manager earlier and i was offered a project based supervisory position. It's not as good as the post i was applying for but im sure the learning experience will be worth all my time. Thanks to Boss Mic for the trust. I owe you one.

II.
A couple of nights ago, i heard from a friend that an ex of mine died in a fire. She was the secret ex. The one "She" never found out about. It was almost a 3 year relationship. We had good memories but relationship priorities tore us apart. She was the ex i never really expected to hear about again. But then again i had to find out she's dead. She died with her Mom, Dad and her 4 year old daughter Sophie. I've always wanted to meet Sophie. And i never will.

It's strange when people die on you. You suddenly start to remember little details about them. I remember how she likes wearing boots. And how she carefully wears them after getting dressed. How she says "ponget" instead of "pangit" in her strange st. paul/dlsu accent. How she said she never liked sci-fi, that's why she never liked Lord of the Rings (i had a good laugh at her statement). And just how a sweet young woman she is - was.My prayers go out to Marnelli and her family. I still can't get my head around her death.

III.
I guess this is also the time to thank God for all the blessings. I slowly getting where i want to be. Thank you Lord for always being nice to me. And for taking people away but bringing in new ones.

The Birthday Blog

Yeah i know it's long overdue, but still here goes.

I.
The last few years have been very hard on me. It was time for searching,seeking and more searching. It was time of doubt, pain, misery and almost insanity. I came so close to just turning my back on everything and just start walking away. I came so close to ending it all. I could not handle the idea of losing. I was not really a winner, in fact i lose most of the time, and yet losing was so alien to me. I could not handle the doubt. The idea of losing friends and gaining nothing in return. I just wanted to quit.

II.
BUT after turning 27, i started to look back and see what i lost and if i really gained anything. And i have come to realize that although i lost a lot, God is giving back little by little. I hated losing my friends. But God brought new ones into my life. I am almost always broke, and yet i survive.

III.
Thank you to the people of scubadoo diveshop. You guys are the best! Brett, Dale, Dad and Tweety. My OW batchmates: Davo, GJ, Liz, Noel, Anj at sa iba pa, salamat sa mga gabi ng Generoso Brandy and the entertainment. I'll see you guys tomorrow for another challenging but fun (I'm sure) dive training. Search and recovery, kaya ko kaya to? lol.

IV.
The people from work who never stopped believing in me. My Beloved Incident Management Team: The Best Team NSN has ever seen globally. My very good friends Darius, Gene and Brian. Salamat sa company, sa inuman, sa counterstrike, sa WoW, sa pangmamanyak (hahahaha). TJ, Ruwi, Don, Ethel, salamat sa tawa at saya.

V.
And of course, sa Baby ko. It's been a hard two years. A lot of people rejected me when i was at my best. But you stuck with me at my worst and lowest. Words can never really tell how thankful i am for having you in my life. There's not a night that i don't thank God for bringing you into my life. I love you.